Dear Tori…

Dear Tori,

I know you are hurting right now. I know that you are feeling loss. I want to wrap my arms around you little girl. I want to whisper to you. It will be okay. I will take care of you.

I know that you are struggling. I watch you searching for validation and acknowledgement. You are taking words into your heart like a sponge to drown the sadness, but I know it’s not enough. You are not going to be satisfied. You still feel the loss in the chorus of voices. I want you to try and listen to me though. Please, hear me. You matter. Take these words now and simply carry them in your pocket until you can pick them up. You are enough.

I know your heart is tender. I know you are questioning. I want you to stop searching. You don’t need the answers. You don’t have to ask. You do not need permission to own your truth. Your story is yours to tell. Your intentions made it real. Your path built the you of today. Your history makes you who you are. You are allowed to find happiness in your memories. No one can deny you the change and growth brought by your past. You are never a fool for loving. You should never regret the pureness of that motivation in living. Be proud that you gave so much. Celebrate that you held nothing back. You could not have been more. You do not need to be more.

You are wonderful. I know you cannot see all that you are right now. I hear you trying to define yourself by your shortcomings. There is no fault with you to fix. You do not deserve less love because you are human. You are not experiencing loss because you’re broken. You did not cause this because you are lacking. You are capable of being loved. You are more than the challenges in your life. You have had trauma in your life, and you grew. You have not shriveled, you have grown. You offer more than you cost. You are not a burden. You are allowed to be imperfect. You are doing your work. You live and love with everything in you. Do not find shame in that. Do not shelter your heart. Do not stop giving the world all of you. You give so much of you. Don’t change that. You have a rich life to share with the world. I will help you see that again. I will keep saying these things to you until you can hear me.

Be kind to yourself. Keep asking for help. It will get better. Someone will hold your hand again. You will not walk this path alone.

You are a beautiful soul sweet, little girl. You have had so much hurt. You have had a challenging road to get to where you are. Today that place feels heavy and dark, but the clouds will clear and you will see. The sky will open and you will see the world that you have built for yourself. It is truly amazing what you have created. You will open your eyes and see yourself again. You will see why we all love you so much. I know this is hard. I am so proud of you. We will get through this. We will do amazing things.

Live loud. Life is long.