400 miles of music…

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The playlist for my spontaneous adventure yesterday – most recent first.

Hit Me With Your Best Shot Pat Benatar The Rolling Stone Women In Rock Collection [Disc 2]
Symphony 9 & the Sunshine Emily Wells The Symphonies: Dreams Memories & Parties
Milo Matt The Electrician Made For Working
Girl Is On My Mind The Black Keys Rubber Factory
The Next Episode In The Thrift Shop (Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ft. Wanz vs. Dr. Dre & Rasmus Hedegaard) Abader000 Best of Bootie 2013
Sit In With The Band Hayes Carll Little Rock
Looking at the World from the Bottom of a Well Mike Doughty Haughty Melodic
She Believes In Me Me First And The Gimme Gimmes Love Their Country
Apple Tree Erykah Badu Live
Get ‘Em Outta Here Sprung Monkey Mr Funny Face [Bonus Tracks]
You May Be Right Billy Joel Greatest Hits, Vol. 2 (1978-1985) [Disc 2]
Skyfuckingline Of Toronto The Rugburns Mommy I’m Sorry
Burritos & Doritos The Rugburns Lick Her Shoes
A Pirate Looks At Forty Jimmy Buffett You Had To Be There [Live] [Disc 2]
The Banana Song The Rugburns Yo! Baby Dolls! Chill Your Minds!
Chin Up, Cheer Up Ryan Adams Demolition
Blink 182 – What’s My Age Again
Train Matt The Electrician Matt The Electrician Is Alive
Good Hearted Woman Toby Keith & Willie Nelson Stars & Guitars [Live]
Sugar Boogers Steve Poltz 2003-09-13 – Davey’s Uptown Ramblers Club
Gold’s Gym Guy The Rugburns The Real World
Enjoy Yourself Todd Snider East Nashville Skyline
Crucify Tori Amos Little Earthquakes
Heigh-Ho The Dwarf Chorus Classic Disney Volume II
Fat Lip Sum 41 Now That’s What I Call Music! Vol. 8
Conjunction Junction Better Than Ezra School House Rock! Rocks
Keep Off The Grass Todd Snider Happy To Be Here
Baby Did A Bad Bad Thing Chris Isaak Eyes Wide Shut
Man In Black Devil Doll The Return Of Eve
Can’t Get You Out Of My Head Patrick&Eugene Postcards From Summer Isle
Dancing With Myself Billy Idol & Generation X Party Central
Closer To Fine Indigo Girls Retrospective
Notice The Head Steve Poltz Live At Largo
Your Hair Sucks Steve Poltz Live At Largo
Rose Tint My World Peter Hinwood, Barry Bostwick, Little Nell & Susan Sarandon The Rocky Horror Picture Show
Graceland Paul Simon Concert In The Park, August 15, 1991 [Disc 2]
Crash On The Barrelhead Old 97’s Fight Songs
Got Your Back Matt The Electrician Matt The Electrician Is Alive
Grapefruit – Juicy Fruit Jimmy Buffett Songs You Know By Heart
Love Is Strange Mickey & Sylvia Dirty Dancing
Too Much Dave Matthews Band
09 09 09 09 09 09 09 09 09 rugburns2 rugburns 2004-12-31 – Belly Up Tavern
Come Baby Come K7 Strip Jointz 2: More Hot Songs For Sexy Dancers
Nothin’ N.O.R.E. Now That’s What I Call Music! Vol. 11
Rowing Song Patty Griffin Impossible Dream
House In The Woods Tom Petty Wildflowers
House Back Steve Poltz 2013-03-19 Austin, TX
Postcard Of A Painting Maxïmo Park A Certain Trigger
Train – Meet Virginia
So Alive Ryan Adams Rock N Roll
B-Rock & The Bizz – My Baby Daddy B-Rock & The Bizz Pure Dance 1998
Why Do They Leave? Ryan Adams Heartbreaker
Get Out The Map Indigo Girls Retrospective
Get It On At Le Disko (T.Rex vs. Shiny Toy Guns)-The Illuminoids The Illuminoids
If You Want To Sing Out (Cat Stevens) Steve Poltz Get Covered
On The Radar Matt The Electrician One Thing Right
Survivor Destiny’s Child Now That’s What I Call Music! Vol. 7
King Of New York Newsies Newsies
Blurred Ice (Vanilla Ice vs. Robin Thicke ft. Pharrell Williams & T.I.) Ed Home Best of Bootie 2013
All For You Janet Jackson Now That’s What I Call Music! Vol. 7
Cheeseburger In Paradise Jimmy Buffett Boats, Beaches, Bars & Ballads [Disc 2]
Stronger Enough (Kelly Clarkson vs. Michael Jackson) Lobsterdust Best of Bootie 2012
Wonderwall Like You (Oasis vs. Adele) DJ Axcess DJ Axcess Mashup
Bootie Intro 2013 Entyme Best of Bootie 2013
If Only You Were Lonely Steve Poltz 2003-09-13 – Davey’s Uptown Ramblers Club
B.O.B. Outkast Stankonia
Shoop Salt-N-Pepa The Rolling Stone Women In Rock Collection: Vol. 3 1987-1997 [Disc 3]
Stormy Tim Easton Porcupine
Cabin Down Below Tom Petty Wildflowers
Sparkling Diamonds Jim Broadbent, Nicole Kidman, Natalie Mendoza, Lara Mulcahy & Caroline O’Connor Moulin Rouge
spoltz2003-03-07d1t28 Steve Poltz
Track 14 Rugburns & Guests New Years Eve 2008/2009 Sound board Disc 1
Something There Paige O’Hara And Robby Benson Classic Disney Volume II
Gypsy Bitch Devil Doll The Return Of Eve
Busted The Black Keys The Big Come Up
(I’ve Had) The Time Of My Life Bill Medley & Jennifer Warnes Dirty Dancing
When The Lights Go Out The Black Keys Rubber Factory
Serve Me My Food Steve Poltz Traveling
Down South Tom Petty Highway Companion
You Oughta Know Alanis Morissette 1996 Grammy Nominees
I’ve Done Everything For You Rick Springfield More Pure 80’s
Pearls On A String Ryan Adams
Margaritaville Jimmy Buffett Meet Me In Margaritaville: The Ultimate Collection
Joy To The World Three Dog Night Forrest Gump [Disc 2]
JoJo Sprung Monkey Mr Funny Face [Bonus Tracks]
Steve Poltz – spoltz2004-01-31d2t01 Steve Poltz 1/31/2004
spoltz2004-02-15t13 Steve Poltz
Can’t Get Enough Patty Loveless Classics

Grateful.

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It’s maybe time to revel in this place in a little…

I am thankful for my path as a human.  I say that jokingly a lot, but I think being alive and experiencing this world is a pretty magical thing.  All the extremes of emotions that can be felt as a person, all the experiences that can happen are amazing to me.  I sit in awe sometimes at how truly marvelous the world can be.  My life hasn’t been without challenges, but in a spectrum of existence, I know that I’m extremely lucky with the way my fate has played out thus far.  I am a lucky person that I have the ability to live the lifestyle I do and have the experiences I want.  I want to believe that there is a bigger plan in this universe, and that the things that I feel are missing my life are keeping space for adventures that are meant to be instead.  This is not a bad life and I am filled with gratitude that it’s mine.

The people in my life are inspiring.  I am not sure how I got so lucky to have the most amazing support network that a person could ask for, but I’m filled with gratitude that I’ve been able to nurture such deep relationships with such a broad range of people, especially over the last decade.  When I step back and look at the various families that I have added to my own, I’m humbled.  My Poser people, the Poltz cult, the Schmeers, my college crew, and everyone I’ve met since…you all make me feel like I belong to something.  I’ve reached this place in my life where I feel like it’s okay to be myself most of the time.  I feel like I’m accepted, validated and supported by some pretty incredible people.  To reject their praise and wallow in self-doubt is to deny their ability to select quality humans to surround themselves with right?  The same way I expect someone to believe me when I tell them they’re awesome, I need to not feel so uncomfortable with hearing the validation I so desperately seek.  So somehow, all of these people choose to love me and it’s amazing.  They guide me, inspire me, listen, offer patience and advice.  I feel like it’s okay to ask for help, it’s okay to be weak sometimes, and I feel like there is a line of people willing to put their arms around me and remind me I’m not alone.  I maybe discount that too often, but it’s a damn special thing.  I am so grateful that I’m not alone in this world and have such a diverse group of resourceful, caring people to reach out to.

I’m grateful for my career.  Maybe it’s luck, or chance that I got a temp job that put me on the path to be a marketer, but I love what I do.  I might or might not have loved being a teacher, but I am grateful my life took this pivot.  I really love evangelizing consumer products that people can be enthusiastic about.  I love finding new ways to bring awareness to tools that allow people to live their lives more creatively.  I am so blessed that my hard work has paid off and that I am recognized for my success.  I am well paid, appreciated, work with great people, and frankly, I am damn good at what I do.  It’s fantastic that I found something that pays me to do something I excel at.  I am so lucky that I’ve had so many wonderful, patient people to guide and teach me how to navigate the business world.  I have learned tons of lessons, been allowed to experiment and take chances, and given responsibility that helped me grow.  Being someone that gets so much of my self worth from my job, I revel in gratitude for all of the things that make such a major chunk of my life so pleasant.

It’s important for me to remember these things.  To be in this place instead of the darker place in my head where I feel like a rejected impostor, wallowing in what I’m lacking instead of what is thriving in front of me.  I need to do more writing like this.